A long pause
So...wow...it has been a while since I have had time to sit down and type up an update. There has been A LOT going on since November. So I will try to go chronologically.
With in a few hours of my last blog being written, my amazing nephew was born. Jace is my second nephew and it was such a blessing to be able to be a part of his coming into this world. I help my brother and sister in law out by staying at night in the hospital while my brother stayed with their other son at night so he wouldn't have too much disruption to his life. It was so amazing to be able to be there with my sister in law after she gave birth and to get to spend that time with Jace at night when she was trying to get some rest in between feedings. Jace is now 4 months old and an absolute joy to be around. His older brother Will is doing AMAZING with him and loves him.
In December, we started off the month with my father being in the hospital. He actually was admitted at the end of November but ended up spending almost two weeks there for multiple issues. At one point, he nearly lost hope of leaving the hospital alive and my father who NEVER cries, cried on the phone with me. It absolutely tore me to pieces. He finally did get better and we got him home before Christmas. At this same time, my sweet aunt was also in the hospital and got out a few days after dad.
We also took another step in our journey and completed an HSG procedure to verify there were no blockages fallopian tubes. The procedure itself is very basic and only takes about 30 minutes to complete....when there aren't any complications. Well of course nothing with me can be normal. So the doctor is attempting to get the catheder in place and they cannot get it in. (**WARNING I HAVE NO MODESTY ABOUT THE PROCEDURES I GO THROUGH ANY MORE AND WILL BE GOING INTO MEDICAL DETAIL IN THE NEXT FEW SENTENCES**) The reason the catheder would not go is because they found that I had stenosis of my cervix. This in basic terms means there was an abnormal narrowing of the inside of my cervix and mine was because of an cyst in the inside of my cervix. Any one that knows how small a cathader is and the fact that it wouldn't fit understands that this cyst was causing a pretty significant issue. So my doctor has known me for 12-13 years at this point and from previously experiences knows to do what needs to be done and explain it to me later. This is because I usually do better not knowing things in emergency situations because I am not given the opportunity to over think things. So the doctor asks the nurse to retrieve something that I later find out is a surgical kit. Once she returns, the doctor forces me to dilate, removes the cyst and then inserts the catheder and the procedure is completed to show that there are no blockages and that my live X-rays of the iodine that was being pumped into me were "text book perfect". So for anyone that hasn't realized this yet- I was forced to dilate and had a cyst removed, with out any anesthesia of any kind. NONE. The nurse and my husband were having be do labor breathing so that I could get through what the doctor was doing before he was able to get the catheder in with out me passing out. After the procedure is completed, I set up and see hemostats and other medical equipment covered in blood and iodine and become incredibly more thankful to have the husband that I do because with out him, I would have never made it through that procedure. The procedure itself without the complications was not that bad and had it not been for the complications, I would of walked out of the procedure with out any issues. Because of the complications, I had some pretty serious pain and cramping. I had to undialate and my uterus had to contract to squeeze out the iodine that had been pumped into me...so needless to say, I spent the rest of the day in the bed! OH and I didn't this 3 days before Christmas, my favorite holiday all year. So I was still sore from recovering from complications of the procedure but with the good new of finding out nothing else was wrong and my dad and aunt getting out of the hospital, I found myself being incredibly thankful for the Lord's blessings. My parents, husband, brother, sister in law and nephews celebrated Christmas together the day after Christmas with a Prime Rib roast that I studied and cooked PERFECTLY and we have decided that it is going to be our new Christmas family supper tradition to eat.
Andrew had to work patrol on Christmas Day so we waited until after he got off work to open our Christmas presents. For anyone that has been around me on Christmas, they know that this was very hard for me because I'm like a kid on Christmas morning when it comes to watching others open their presents. We did get to spend some time during the day together thanks to his wonderful sgt that invited us to his house to hang out. He lives in town limits in the town that Andrew works in so Andrew and his patrol partner were able to come to his home and eat with us and respond to calls from his house for the few hours that we had. Since Christmas is also my birthday, it was very special to me to have this time with Andrew. He always knows exactly what to do to make me feel so special and perfectly happy in every situation.
We stopped with the weight loss pills as we felt like it was time to move forward with attempting to get pregnant. This is because we both are ready to be parents to the most amazing blessing a person can experience but also because during the time by dad was in the hospital and in the time since then, we have learned that he will have to have an kidney transplant. He will live about 5-7 years on dialysis and 10-20 year with a transplant. I want my children to know their grandfather. To get to know the amazing man that he is and experience the joy that I see in Will and Jace when they get to spend time with their Pappaw. My father also deserves to get to spend as much time as possible spoiling my children and I want him to have that.
A short time after Christmas, my aunt returned to the hospital and it was found that there was no longer anything that could be done to help her and that she would need to go to a nursing home for round the clock care. I had the heart breaking experience of watching the people in this world that mean the most to me go through indescribable pain and heartache. On March the 3rd, my aunt got the healing that the doctors couldn't give her. She went home to be with her Saviour and Lord where she is no longer in pain and is no longer suffering. She is with her mother and father, her twin children she miscarried and my beautiful niece that I never got to meet because she died before she was born. My family is one of those rare families that is still close including by my cousins. I was raised to have the same relationship with my cousins as I did with my brother. I love my cousins like by own siblings. And in times like this where our beloved aunt, and mother to two of my cousins went home, we come together in a way that cannot be explained and a way that is strange to many in these days and times that we live in. I listened to the preachers at the services talk about how they could see the love that we have for each other and the peace that we had even in the time of mourning. For me, it was from having that relationship with my cousins to be able to support them and also because of a song that I had in my head for he days after my aunt's home going celebration. How beautiful heaven must be. Sweet home of the happy and free. Fair haven of rest for the weary, how beautiful heaven must be.
Through all the ups and downs of the past few months, I have had little time to be able to get other here and update but I hope to return to at least doing monthly updates if not more often now. Andrew and I have made the decision to do IUI and will be saving our money to be able to pay for this as well. Our goal is to be pregnant by the end of this year. I also know that I will get pregnant in the Lord's perfect timing so even if that is after the end of this year, I will praise him for his blessings and be thankful for the things that I do have as not everyone is as blessed as my husband and I to have the things and family that we do.
How Beautiful Heaven Must Be- The Kingsmen
With in a few hours of my last blog being written, my amazing nephew was born. Jace is my second nephew and it was such a blessing to be able to be a part of his coming into this world. I help my brother and sister in law out by staying at night in the hospital while my brother stayed with their other son at night so he wouldn't have too much disruption to his life. It was so amazing to be able to be there with my sister in law after she gave birth and to get to spend that time with Jace at night when she was trying to get some rest in between feedings. Jace is now 4 months old and an absolute joy to be around. His older brother Will is doing AMAZING with him and loves him.
In December, we started off the month with my father being in the hospital. He actually was admitted at the end of November but ended up spending almost two weeks there for multiple issues. At one point, he nearly lost hope of leaving the hospital alive and my father who NEVER cries, cried on the phone with me. It absolutely tore me to pieces. He finally did get better and we got him home before Christmas. At this same time, my sweet aunt was also in the hospital and got out a few days after dad.
We also took another step in our journey and completed an HSG procedure to verify there were no blockages fallopian tubes. The procedure itself is very basic and only takes about 30 minutes to complete....when there aren't any complications. Well of course nothing with me can be normal. So the doctor is attempting to get the catheder in place and they cannot get it in. (**WARNING I HAVE NO MODESTY ABOUT THE PROCEDURES I GO THROUGH ANY MORE AND WILL BE GOING INTO MEDICAL DETAIL IN THE NEXT FEW SENTENCES**) The reason the catheder would not go is because they found that I had stenosis of my cervix. This in basic terms means there was an abnormal narrowing of the inside of my cervix and mine was because of an cyst in the inside of my cervix. Any one that knows how small a cathader is and the fact that it wouldn't fit understands that this cyst was causing a pretty significant issue. So my doctor has known me for 12-13 years at this point and from previously experiences knows to do what needs to be done and explain it to me later. This is because I usually do better not knowing things in emergency situations because I am not given the opportunity to over think things. So the doctor asks the nurse to retrieve something that I later find out is a surgical kit. Once she returns, the doctor forces me to dilate, removes the cyst and then inserts the catheder and the procedure is completed to show that there are no blockages and that my live X-rays of the iodine that was being pumped into me were "text book perfect". So for anyone that hasn't realized this yet- I was forced to dilate and had a cyst removed, with out any anesthesia of any kind. NONE. The nurse and my husband were having be do labor breathing so that I could get through what the doctor was doing before he was able to get the catheder in with out me passing out. After the procedure is completed, I set up and see hemostats and other medical equipment covered in blood and iodine and become incredibly more thankful to have the husband that I do because with out him, I would have never made it through that procedure. The procedure itself without the complications was not that bad and had it not been for the complications, I would of walked out of the procedure with out any issues. Because of the complications, I had some pretty serious pain and cramping. I had to undialate and my uterus had to contract to squeeze out the iodine that had been pumped into me...so needless to say, I spent the rest of the day in the bed! OH and I didn't this 3 days before Christmas, my favorite holiday all year. So I was still sore from recovering from complications of the procedure but with the good new of finding out nothing else was wrong and my dad and aunt getting out of the hospital, I found myself being incredibly thankful for the Lord's blessings. My parents, husband, brother, sister in law and nephews celebrated Christmas together the day after Christmas with a Prime Rib roast that I studied and cooked PERFECTLY and we have decided that it is going to be our new Christmas family supper tradition to eat.
Andrew had to work patrol on Christmas Day so we waited until after he got off work to open our Christmas presents. For anyone that has been around me on Christmas, they know that this was very hard for me because I'm like a kid on Christmas morning when it comes to watching others open their presents. We did get to spend some time during the day together thanks to his wonderful sgt that invited us to his house to hang out. He lives in town limits in the town that Andrew works in so Andrew and his patrol partner were able to come to his home and eat with us and respond to calls from his house for the few hours that we had. Since Christmas is also my birthday, it was very special to me to have this time with Andrew. He always knows exactly what to do to make me feel so special and perfectly happy in every situation.
We stopped with the weight loss pills as we felt like it was time to move forward with attempting to get pregnant. This is because we both are ready to be parents to the most amazing blessing a person can experience but also because during the time by dad was in the hospital and in the time since then, we have learned that he will have to have an kidney transplant. He will live about 5-7 years on dialysis and 10-20 year with a transplant. I want my children to know their grandfather. To get to know the amazing man that he is and experience the joy that I see in Will and Jace when they get to spend time with their Pappaw. My father also deserves to get to spend as much time as possible spoiling my children and I want him to have that.
A short time after Christmas, my aunt returned to the hospital and it was found that there was no longer anything that could be done to help her and that she would need to go to a nursing home for round the clock care. I had the heart breaking experience of watching the people in this world that mean the most to me go through indescribable pain and heartache. On March the 3rd, my aunt got the healing that the doctors couldn't give her. She went home to be with her Saviour and Lord where she is no longer in pain and is no longer suffering. She is with her mother and father, her twin children she miscarried and my beautiful niece that I never got to meet because she died before she was born. My family is one of those rare families that is still close including by my cousins. I was raised to have the same relationship with my cousins as I did with my brother. I love my cousins like by own siblings. And in times like this where our beloved aunt, and mother to two of my cousins went home, we come together in a way that cannot be explained and a way that is strange to many in these days and times that we live in. I listened to the preachers at the services talk about how they could see the love that we have for each other and the peace that we had even in the time of mourning. For me, it was from having that relationship with my cousins to be able to support them and also because of a song that I had in my head for he days after my aunt's home going celebration. How beautiful heaven must be. Sweet home of the happy and free. Fair haven of rest for the weary, how beautiful heaven must be.
Through all the ups and downs of the past few months, I have had little time to be able to get other here and update but I hope to return to at least doing monthly updates if not more often now. Andrew and I have made the decision to do IUI and will be saving our money to be able to pay for this as well. Our goal is to be pregnant by the end of this year. I also know that I will get pregnant in the Lord's perfect timing so even if that is after the end of this year, I will praise him for his blessings and be thankful for the things that I do have as not everyone is as blessed as my husband and I to have the things and family that we do.
How Beautiful Heaven Must Be- The Kingsmen
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